Wow! In need of a big update!!!

So its been a few months.... I have been busy with school, kids, daycare and my husband started a business... I say I have some good excuses why I am so behind. Well Ryan and Brandon (his partner) opened up their business in May! Finally it seems like it was taking forever but it is up and running and we have been getting good business. I am finally getting a brake til late August from school I am really excited about that even though I had to finish with two B's :( but they were good grades considering everything that has gone on in my life lately.

For those of you who don't know a little boy that I watched named Aiden who was 9 months old died in May in his sleep at my house. I had to do CPR and everything, it was the worse experience of my life! I couldn't even sleep in my room for a while because that is where I had him. I had laid him down for a nap and was packing Kaylees clothes in her room which is directly above my bedroom, I heard some banging around downstairs and realized Kaylee and Beily were in my room so I ran downstairs a little upset because I knew they were going to wake him up. I shoed them out of my room and went to check on Aiden and he was completely blue. I did CPR until some firemen showed up and they took over and then took him back to the ambulence. When he was gone the police told me that they had a pulse on him but they wouldn't tell me anything else. After having them kick me out of my house and having to talk to investigator while they took pictures of every room and took some items from my house they finally gave me the bad news. I was able to go to the hospital with his parents and say goodbye to him. I have never seen someone die or be dead in front of me and it was the strangest experience of my life, I just couldn't believe he was gone. One minute he was playing with me downstairs and the next he was just gone.

I am grateful for Sara and Andrew and their families and their love for me during this time. I loved Aiden and so did Kaylee and Ryan. He was a part of our family for a short time and in a way Kaylee's little brother. She actually told me that she was going to marry him someday. Kaylee has been confused about the whole ordeal and talks about him almost everyday. Today she said a sweet prayer in which she said Heavenly Father please take care of all the children but please take care of Aiden. She asked me if we could drive to heaven to see Aiden and said that she really misses him and wants to go see him. She was watching as I did CPR on Aiden and I remember her saying oh.. I sure hope Aiden is going to be all right. She loved taking care of him and help him eat and drink his bottle.

Through all of this I am grateful for the gospel and the knowledge that I have that Sara and Andrew will get to be with him again someday and hug him and hold him. What a great day that will be for them.

I have to thank everyone who has been with me through this and for helping me with my kids and giving me support as well. I love you all and I am grateful especially for Ryan and the support he gave me even when he was away from home. I had my friends Deena and Tanner show up right before the investigator told me Aiden was gone and shortly after my mom was there as well. I am glad I didn't have to receive that news while I was all alone. Thank you everyone... I love you.